Hello, World

The website is live! This is my first ever post.

Frankly, writing doesn't come naturally to me. I've always been more of a reader than a writer. Writing about myself, or showing some of my work, feels very challenging. It's a sort of mental blockade, stemming from some degree of "exposure anxiety".

I've always felt that I'm in a continuous absorption mode. My constant state of mind is to learn the most that I can about all the things that interest me, and try to be the best I can be by whatever subjective measures I set for myself. It feels fun to always be learning.

But... whenever I consider outputting some of what I have internalized, there's a blockade. It feels a bit frightening to put myself out there and state "Hey, look at this thing that I did", "Here are my thoughts on this subject" or "This is how this thing should be done". It's weird to acknowledge that my opinion could be of interest to others. And it feels almost improper to immortalize my opinion on the internet unless I am sure that I have a perfect, vacuum-tight understanding of a concept.

Now I realize that this way of thinking is not healthy. It comes from the fear of being wrong. Things get tangled up, understandings can be partial, and not every truth is absolute. We're all messy creatures living in a complex world. It is fine to have gaps in our understanding, and it's not a death sentence to be wrong on the internet. It might even be a more efficient way to learn something new and fill in those gaps.

We should be challenged in order to grow. So this website is me challenging myself to get out of my comfort zone a bit: shifting from a purely absorption mode into a little bit of output. I hope it can serve as a motivator to get me to write a bit about any projects I've been working on, maybe some ramblings that have been on my mind, and to showcase some of my photography. I don't expect that future posts will be as introspective as this one, haha.

See you!